I'm so depressed that I can't focus or make progress on anything.
Everything is falling apart and I'm losing my grip even more, I already know
I can't pay the bills this month and I'm just starting to give up.
The probability of success is low.

I wish I could go to the mental health hospital, but if I do that then nothing will get done and nothing will get paid. It's so ****ing ridiculous. I'm supposed to go there if things get really bad, but then I can't because of other concerns. Seems more like I'm supposed to fall apart.

So so sick of coming here and whining and talking and whining. Don't know why I'm doing it again, but I'm here.