Hello, lmn
Therapy and Medication together are really a good start in treating the depression, you have made a very positive decision as far as recovering from the depression.
I myself have and still do relate to the problems that you expressed, in one way or another. I feel that each individual suffering will experience these things in one form or another. Worry is part of depression, as well as fear and I experience them both only no where to the extent that I did before starting treatment. I mostly discuss my fears and worries with my T and how they affect me. At times just having someone let you know that your fear or worry is real and that It is ok to be afraid helps me alot. In fact it actually helps me fear and worry less.
Medications are tricky, it is alot of trial and error, it takes some time to get the right medication or combinations of medication to help. I at times expect to feel better after the first dose, though they have told me that some medications can take up to 3 to 4 weeks to start working all the way.
I hope for you the best in overcoming this
Peace~ CHRIS
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