I really feel like i can't go on another day. I can't take it. I am being harrassed in my own home, the landlords don't want me here and they are doing everything they can to make sure i'm miserable every day all day. My bf does nothing. He does not stand up for me he does not get angry that i'm being harrassed. He worries about everyone in his family and will jump through hoops to help them, defend them, cater to them. But me he has nothing to say. I feel stuck. I have nobody, no children, my parents are dead, my siblings act like i don't exist, i've lost most of my friends because i push them away because i'm depressed and miserable and ashamed of myself and mylife. Recently i bumped into one of the friends i made while working and she wants us to get together with the other girls and i'm worried about what i'm going to say if i go with them. My life is a mess. I'm on disability, i don't want to tell them that. Nothing good has happened. Things have gone down hill since i last saw them. What the heck do i say? I am so miserable and i feel like i have nobody and i belong nowhere. I hate living here, the landlords don't want me here and my bf and i are not getting along, i'm sick of not being a priority in his life. I feel very vulnerable and i'm concerned. I don't want to be in this house anymore with him and the landlords upstairs. I don't want to be here but i can't move. I have no money and no means. I really want to jump the hell off a bridge. Its not a suicide note ok, i'm not doing it, but i want to. I just am expressing how hopeless and miserable i am right now. What do you do when you feel you have no one on your side and you don't feel like you belong anywhere? What do you do???