I woke up crying. It's like 8 AM over here and I can't go back to sleep. had a bad dream. Which also made me realize that I've had symptoms of BPD for a while. because this dream was like a memory. And then I woke up and cried for another half hour. But I didn't scratch myself. So I'm quite proud of that.

And I did the 90 seconds relaxation thing.. And now I'm gonna maybe do my last bit of homework. And then draw. Even though I can't. I still like to. And then take a shower.

I've been having this thing lately.. I compare myself to others too much. It happens when I discover someone great. This time, it's the singer Lights. I just wish I was her. It's like.. How come some people have it all. She can do anything and she's gorgeous.. And some people don't have anything..