I know I haven't totally given up.....but I am not sure what else to do.
I am embrassed.....I used to be a person who could handle and even thrived from stress....and I now something new pops up and I cant handle it.
My therapist thinks part of this is because I am morning the lost of school and I dont want to transition into the world of adulthood and I think that is true. Life is hard.....decisions are hard.
My current struggle is the hardest thing I ever had to do......and I have a hard time talking about it.
I need some advice though. I am in a long distance relationship for 2 1/2 years now and we are great together....and he does metion the future but we haven't made specific plans.....but anyway thats another fear. I just wanted to know how I can tell him some of this....I am so afraid he is going to be disappointed in me..........he know something is wrong but he doesn't know the extent because he is not here during the week. ANd on the weekends I am so happy to be with him that one I dont want to think about it and at times I dont and two I dont want to screw up the few good times I can enjoy. But recently it is creeping into that relationship to. I just dont know how to tell him cause he is very conservative and he is to quick to judge that people are to overly medication. He doesn't know I have exhausted all other options like herbal remedies and acupuncture. Anyway how can I tell the man I love....how sad I am.....and isn't werid that I dont get that upset when I am spending time with him but as soon as I return to my world....2 hours away I am a mess? Please help............