Thanks for the encouragement Lee! I don`t think I`m a role model in this case at all because I wasted nearly 9 years on something I knew was likely to fail. I had to leave so that I can have a real future for myself. I was a fool for believing my ex`s bs about everything will be better in the future mean while nothing got better during the times he`d say that. I mean a little got better or maybe he just got better at bs-ing me. Looking back it seemed like he was less SZ and more Bipolar with heavy duty paranoia, obessions, control freak issues and narcissistic personality disorder than anything else. Could he have been misdiagnosed? Not that it matters now. It would only matter in knowing why he acted the way he did.