i'm 15 years old and i'm undiagnosed but i'm pretty sure i have severe depression, it's been this way since i was 11. i have self-harmed for the past three years. i'm never happy and i just always feel like i don't belong. even when people are nice to me i always feel like they actually hate me and i've gone through a lot of neglect issues that i don't want to talk about but maybe it has something to do with it. two years ago when i went to get tested for adhd my mum mentioned that i might have depression, my doctor then asked my right in front of her if i self harmed and obviously i lied and said no because that wasn't private or respectful at all. earlier this year my health teacher noticed my cuts and emailed my mum, she asked me about and i lied again and refused to show her and she never said anything about it since. she asked if i wanted to see a therapist so i went, we had one session and my mum never made me any more appointments even though i've asked. i'm not sure if she doesn't understand or just doesn't care. i've told her 2 or 3 times that i'm suicidal but she doesn't really respond. i don't get it. if i need help how am i supposed to get it? nobody listens to me or takes me seriously. it's frusterating and i don't know what to do. i'm getting worse. i'm afraid of myself, i feel like once i'm triggered i'm really going to do it.