God Vlais..that must have been so horrible for you to go thru…and I hope you find a way to battle the terrible anxiety that must be building, and that your Therapist can assist you in this very BIG decision to go back home with your step father, into this emotional and psychological torturous environment, but home is home. It’s just so not…I had a very abusive step father. in more way than one too..Excelled in school and was attending college on a scholarship as a Gifted Student..but I was not able to get away from the abuse and ended up loosing everything because of issues I won't go into revolving around my home life but ..Hindsight being what it is..if I had been able to get away to college and not be at home while I was attending..man, I could only dream of what my life would have been like..the lost years, and I would have never looked back intellectually, but I understand emotionally where your at…home is home..familiar..even in the worse ways..take care and I hope your T helps you to make the best decision for you and your future..

This must have been very hard to share…I hope you take care..and you are worth so much more than what “Home” has to offer …