Woah, all of that sounds exactly like what I'm going through. I've always been the supporter, in the background, but still outgoing and ball-sy at times. No one really hates me but no one exactly is calling to see if I'm available to hang out. Once I realized it's because I'm always changing for everyone else I started trying to be me then realized I have zero identity. I can't even dedicate to one look. My closet is like a mish mash of punk, alternative, preppy and athletic. I'm trying to stick with athletic because working out makes me feel less effed in the head. But blah, blah, I hope you find your you. I started using pinterist because it helps me actually make small decisions on what I like.