How do you know how much you will receive? I am leary of applying myself. I am 49 with hx of attempted suicides and suicide ideation for the past 11 years. I now see a psychiatrist and was just recently placed on lithium.

I never wanted to accept or acknowledge I actually had this disease and have been struggling with it. My history of employment has also struggled with missed work due to such severe mania. I just could not come to grips with the fact I was/AM bipolar