so i went to pick up somethings from my boyfriends apartment and there was a girl asleep in his bed. so i'm going to be a single parent. which is pretty hard to deal with because i really didn't want to keep the baby in the first place. but i thought, hey, maybe everything will be ok if i just try and work things out... and i won't be alone. but now that i know i will be alone... i don't really know how to feel. but that's life.
I'm okay.. I just don't want this baby to feel all the negative emotions that i'm feeling right now.
It's hard because I've been struggling with this pregnancy and depression and not being able to take my meds. but at this very moment I feel pretty numb. So a guess that's an up to all the downs in my life.