You've hit on something I've been thinking about. All this emotion swirling around the T/client relationship. And exactly how much is needed to further the therapeutic process in the right direction.

At this moment in time, I think for me to be able to accept a compliment from T properly, I would have to be at a certain place emotionally with her. And that kinda scares me. For all the joking I do about wanting to love her, I know that is a slippery place to be. Could end up being good - could end up being horrible. But at the place I am now, feeling neither love or hate for her (really not feeling anything for her at all), any compliments from her would be as you suggested and therefore unproductive.

I'm still tryin to figure out what T meant when she said that I was the most aware person she's ever met. I didnt take it as a compliment. She said it with a smile, but...