T2 really gave me the "sandpaper thumb" yesterday (you know, to squash a bug really hard).

SAWE: do you think that this [tendency to a distorted reaction] is compounded by the fact that A is still in my life today, and is on my list of ... abusers (I choked on the word, but she permits me no other word) ?

T2: It's reasonable to think so. Of course, A isn't the only person on that list.

SAWE: no...

T2: and B is not the only other person who would be on that list...

SAWE: ulp, no..... thinking to myself about C,D,E, and more etc..........

I felt absolutely like ****, like crawling into a hole.
Today I am depressed and she says, "Coming out of denial is progress. Think about blessings."

I am willing to think about blessings. but why do they do this to us?