I have tried tons of different meds and there was little difference. I am currently on Lexapro and it's not making a difference, but I don't want to go through withdrawal AGAIN so I am staying on it.

I am scared to see a therapist again because the very first one I ever saw did a lot of damage. She pushed me to break all contact with everyone in my family and move away. She kept telling me I would never be normal until I cut all ties with my family. Looking back, it was sort of an abusive relationship. She told me that she was the only one who can help and that I needed to trust her. She kept reiterating that I needed a job so I could see her 2-3 times a week. When I tried to cut down to once a week, she threatened to terminate therapy. She also told me that I was very immature for my age and needed to keep my family out of the loop since I must make my own decisions and be independent. This is why this went on for so long. Finally, I broke down and told them and they helped me leave this awful therapist.

It took me years to be able to see another therapist again, but I have a hard time trusting. Plus, none of them were able to detect my OCD even when I told them about my obsessions. I found out recently that I have OCD because I accidentally happened upon a questionnaire online and realized that I have almost all the symptoms. I never thought the separation anxiety could be part of the OCD, though.