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Originally Posted by Leed
Bathony it IS possible that what you are HEARING is not what they SAID. Please don't get me wrong, but many times when we are ill, we don't have the best perception. We don't "hear" things correctly. We are so "sick" that we hear things as we EXPECT to hear them -- not how they actually come out.
I find it hard to believe that all those trained professionals we ALL AGAINST you, honey.  You are NOT a BAD PERSON!! I've read all your posts, and you're just not all those things that you said THEY said. So i have a feeling that what you heard was not what they said. When I was in the deepest darkest phase of my depression, I didn't hear things correctly either. I ALSO heard what I THOUGHT people would say -- since I felt useless, worthless, ugly, fat, (add what you want) I heard what I thought people were inferring. I couldn't have been more wrong.  Trouble is, it started many fights and lots of trouble & heartache.
Think about it. All those professionals couldn't have suggested all those things, because for one thing, it would be VERY unprofessional -- and for another, they're there to HELP you, not browbeat you into submission.
It's not supposed to be a torture session.
I'm not inferring that you're crazy so don't go there --I'm just saying that when we're ill and in the worst of our illness -- we just don't really hear what is really said. I've been there and done that. God bless Bathony -- we're on your side. (((hugs)))) Lee
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As I suspected, you thought I lied or exaggerated. They always think that. I don't lie, you know? I could threw a couple of quotations of those therapists but they would be in Polish and apparently my being Polish is not acceptable here. No one believes me and that's just fine, particularly fine when therapists themselves ask me about my experiences and then tell me I'm lying because no way a therapist could say this or that. Oh really? Should I have witnesses to be believed? Again, I'm the common denominator, so people ask wtf is wrong with me, rather than: wtf is with the mental health system. It's good you all have come across only good therapists, I'm happy for you, but I haven't met anyone who would actually listen to me. 60% of the Psychology students chose the studies to solve THEIR problems, instead of helping others they want to help themselves- no wonder they later make me feel I'm interrupting their coffee break. Young and pretty, what problems, what suicide, go live a happy life, I'm too busy having my coffee! Gosh, what have I expected, it's always the same, ALWAYS. Let's all just agree I'm lying to get attention. Like a gilr asked me if there is anyone who has NOT sexually abused me because my story doesn't sound plausible enough. I lie, I lie! Damn.