Right now Im listeng to music, but feel like I could flip out any second due to idek what. Called my dad last night seeing him on Wed, and will talk to him about helping me find a psych to get evaluated, (my mom already knows). at the same time I regret it because I just don't know what will come of it wearing a hoodie cause I decided to pick open a scratch I had, and scratch my shoulder with a saftey pin last night; ugh I hate mysef for SI but it feels good at the same time, I was doing good too other than hitting I went for 7yrs w/out cutting...