this is NOT what we signed up for! seems no matter how hard we try to be good,do things right,distract,engage,not isolate we always do it wrong and we are so sick and tired of everything!!! mostly we try to keep it all to ourselves save for a few random times when it just leaks all over the place and then we end up feeling desperately ashamed and embarassed for weeks afterwards. be seen and not heard right?? be good and quiet and dont rock the boat just shut your mouth and nobody gets hurt. &^%$#$%^&^%$#@@ it all!!!!!!! we deserved everything that we got and now were paying the price. we dont want to BE anymore!!! no,we would not ever act on it, we arent in any danger but damnit we are sooooo tired of feeling like this all we ever wanted irl was someone to love us unconditionally no matter what we looked like,how we acted and not get in trouble for breathing too loudly!!!! we deeply apologize for this random stupid rant but this is the only safe place we had to do it so please forgive us......