Hi all. I usually post over in the psychotherapy forum but I thought this might fit better over here...Some quick background: I was dx'd with DDNOS many years ago, and spent a few years in T for that (actually, T at that point was mostly about surviving). Now I've been back in T for about a year and a half with the same T as before and officially my dx is PTSD. I don't like labels and neither does he, but I guess this keeps my insurance company satisfied.
I mentioned to T last week that I have this constant screaming in head. He was very interested in this, which kind of freaked me out, so I clammed up about it. I didn't tell him I also have this voice that calls me names and yells at me when I do something I think is wrong or stupid or embarrassing. I've had this for as long as I can remember. I can't explain why, but it feels like both voices are female, and the screamer is quite young. I don't feel like these voices ever "take over" or that I lose control or lose time, although I did experience those sorts of things when I was younger.
So what's the deal with this? Does anyone else have this? I tried googling and only found lots of stuff about schizophrenia, and I do not have that. As comfortable as I am with T, this is really pretty frightening and embarrassing for me to talk to him about, because it sounds crazy even to me, now that I type it out.
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