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Jun 11, 2012, 04:06 PM
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Member Since: Oct 2010
Location: Michigan
Posts: 6,543
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Please don't be scared! Even if you do have to go in-patient, that's not all bad! Since you've been a "binge-user" it's probably a good idea to go in -- and this could be the beginning of a sober-clean life for you! And you may not believe it, but sober living is MUCH more fun that I ever dreamed it would be!!!
I drank & drugged for over 20 years - and i could not imagine what I would do with myself sober.  I knew I HAD to get sober, or die -- and i didn't want to die, so i joined AA. And after getting sober, I couldn't figure out how I had TIME to drink!  There just aren't enough hours in the day!
You said "this is the end of the life you know" --- YES, it will be the end of the drugged life that you know. It's the end of the highs - and the awful lows. It's the end of running out of your meds too soon and trying to figure out how you'll get more -- or buying it illegally. It's the end of withdrawals that are awful.
How about getting up in the morning and feeling great? How about not feeling guilty anymore? How about not hating yourself anymore cause you "relapsed." How about being able to look at yourself in the mirror and now being repulsed? How about having friends - REAL friends, and not fellow "druggies?" I could go on and on about the pros of being clean, but you get the picture. 
Don't be afraid. Take the advice of the therapist -- and if she thinks you need to go inpatient -- then go. It's the BEST gift you could give yourself. The "gift" of life that God gave you. Take care. Hugs, Lee
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