Thank all of you for your welcoming responses.

Last night when I was thinking about this situation I was feeling very (very) bad...Now that I think about the situation again, It seems apparent that I have to make an extremely hard decision, one that I will have to stick with. This is daunting enough.

As for my degree...I'm getting the feeling that maybe I have been looking at my degree the wrong way. For a long time, I was driven to do well educationally for the sole fact that (to me) a good education meant getting away from home. In a way, I'm totally overlooking the fact that my degree is what will help me (possibly) make a new life for myself.

It's so hard for me to think of a life outside of my family because of what had went on in the past, and thier perception of me. It's going to be very hard to change my life. Hopefully my T will help (who knows)

Thank you all once again

...and thank you Rhapsody for the wonderful book suggestion.