That is simular to the situation I'm in with not being able to see a doctor about any issues I'm having except I was going to try and talk to someone but that hasn't happened yet(they are probably just a therapist though). I tend to rely on weed or alcohol and feel worse off without it. Not that I would be willing to take anything they prescribe...depends on what it is and what it does. Anyways I know the feeling except I haven't been going without it, I'll probably have to though since I kind of fail at life and having income. this probably doesn't help you any though.