I'm pretty sure I'm not psychotic or bipolar...my T is sure, too, so I guess I'm just worried that the dissociation is worse than I've been willing to admit to myself, and to him. This has been going on for so long it doesn't even feel strange anymore. At least, it didn't until T got concerned when I mentioned it.

If I understand correctly, the main difference between DID and DDNOS is that with DID you don't have awareness when other parts of you take over...so if I am always aware of what's going on, even if I feel disconnected or like I'm just watching when these other parts of me are doing things like public speaking or interacting with coworkers for example, then I probably don't have DID...right? Criminy, this is really making me anxious.

I guess I need to talk to T about this some more. I just don't want him to start treating me differently if he finds out I'm more messed up than he thought.