Depression does suck, and it's not fair. I fully agree with you there. Where I disagree is with your thoughts about feeling you have no right to these feelings and "we" do. To me it doesn't matter how we come to develop mental illnesses, we have them. Some get it through abuse, some by simple genetics, and I'm sure there's other ways as well... Suffering is suffering, and you are suffering! I feel for you, and hope you feel better soon.

My own depression at this point in my life appears to be mostly chemical. The last major episode I had happened when I went off my meds thinking everything was okay. Everything in my life was going more or less fine, and I fell into a major depression that lasted for 3-4 months before the meds and therapy began to fight it off. I guess my point is that I don't think you are a scumbag because you are suffering from depression and the terrible thoughts and feelings that always go with it.

Thanks for posting and I hope to hear more from you.