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If he's a good t, he will treat you the same, and do what he can to help with your symptoms. He wont look at you any crazier than he did before. My t, has said time and time again DID is at least fixable compared to the psychotic disorders and such. Keeping something like this from him is not the best idea, this could be the missing link to your recovery. He can't fully help you unless he knows what needs help.
With DID, in my case I do not recall many of the times when they are out, most of the time in fact. When I do, it's very vague and I can like see myself doing it, kind of. Kind of like a nearly forgotten dream. But that doesn't happen often, mostly I have no clue, other than putting together the puzzle pieces. But if I understand correctly (but I am having my own trouble wrapping my mind around this diagnosis and even have a thread right now where I am asking millions of questions about DID) when you acchieve co conciousness you can be somewhat aware of when your alters are out, but I don't believe you have control of the body like you would if you were out. I've experienced that a few times, but not very much. Where I'm watching from the inside (but I seem kind of far back in my head) and I see me doing and saying things, but I don't have control of what I'm doing. But you might not want to fully listen to me as I am having trouble figuring out what's a result of my DID and what's a result of the many other dissociative depersonalization etc symptoms.
Honestly, DID isn't as "crazy" as people think and trained providers know this. My first appointment with t, I told him about my diagnosis. He ruled it out originally starting with a clean slate, saying if it was DID he would come to that conclusion himself. He's reached that conclusion, as many of rest, I was relieved. He notice my relief and asked why I was so worried about having DID. I told him "I don't want to be crazy!" (no offense to anyone with DID please, I don't believe others are crazy but I'm much harder on myself than anyone else and the idea that I have little to no control of my body frightens me, but as we all know, there is nothing we can do about that) he tells me, if it is DID, I should be relieved because it's fixable. Most other disorders I would be on meds for the rest of my life, but DID can be fixed with therapy.
Trust your provider, if he's as good a t as you feel, he will not look at you any differently but may change his approach which may be just what you need. Again, please no one take offense to the "crazy" because I know it takes a very intelligent person, who suffered trauma, it is just so confusing. And the thought of it is so out there, it doesn't seem real but boy is it. Sorry if I offended, I truly do not mean to and do not feel those on this site are "crazy" but I do believe I am a little crazy.
After being with the new t, I am kind of relieved it's DID and not psychosis, which t nor pdoc believe I have.
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