For every positive thing there are 5 negative ones.

I lost my job and am now close to losing everything else.
Can't really pay anything, hell I'm lucky to have electricity and internet access in order to write this! It's all a twisted game.

Everything is falling apart and there really isn't anything I can do about it.
Yes, I can sit and think. But trust me, I just think in circles until my head is about to explode. No one has an answer, hell I'm in this situation because of my bi-polar.

It's all pretty crazy, I'm about ready to just sit back and just let all of the bad things happen. Fighting it all just makes it a hell of a lot worse.

And thus, because of all of this constant **** I deal with where everything I think I can accomplish splits into 40 ****ing parts that require more time and energy I can put forth. Not to mention that I become less and less motivated each and every ****ing day. Hell, I have to fight myself to do anything but sit around. Yes it makes it worse, but what can I do?
Every thing I try just hits me back 5 times as hard.

The ****** part of it all is the fact that many of you have it even worse.
It gets to the point where I wonder what the hell the point of life is, is it just to cause us pain and misery? It's all some sadistic ****ing joke that we all play a part in. That's the fun of it!

Back to the question I wanted to ask; by the way, don't even dare lie about this!

Does anyone really get better? Or is the whole mental health problem just one big circle, just when you think things are good and have gotten better everything falls apart and you're back close to the beginning, or you're lost and don't know where the **** you are.

Wow! Such positive thoughts I have today!
It's called being realistic, I look and see everyone elses pain and it seems that there is never any end to this ****.

Just as a therapist who has never had the dis-pleasure of dealing
with a mental health issue would say:
Look at the positive!"