i absolutely positively love that show.

does anyone else have a choice show when they are feeling hopeless?

besides medication and therapy sessions, watching bret and jermaine will sometimes help me but sometimes it doesn't and i have to just ride it out.

i don't really feel the need to tell my story. considering what type of forum this is i'm pretty sure most of everyone here is currently struggling with or knows someone who is struggling with some form of emotional problem.

i do believe that despite our different stories on how we got here to this forum, we all relatively share the same emotions. some in different degrees but within the same ballpark.

i'm quite fascinated with how our minds work and how perception is truly ones reality.

does anyone else know this scenerio:

things are going good.. the time in between the "episodes" become longer and longer and you really think that you are getting better. there is less conflict with those you love and my god you even feel....dare i say it...good about yourself. you've been active and can function like a "normal" person.

but then something happens... whatever it may be... to test how well you really are doing. you are presented two choices (though most of the time it doesn't feel like there's an option)

1.do i try to fight off this storm that's about to hit

or

2.do i stay in it's path because i'm too tired to fight?

although i try my hardest for option 1.. sometimes i give in to option 2 just becuase it's easier. by easy i don't mean it's easy dealing with it.. i mean it's easier than fighting it.

depression has become this very strange companion whom i've grown attatched to and don't know how to let go. i've known stress and anxiety my whole life and feel almost awkward when i'm happy.

it's strange though. So many times i've felt "this is the worst. i'll never get through this." but it's a little comforting to think that since i have said it so many times...doesn't that mean i am getting through it?

well i just recently lost this round and am waiting to get back on my feet.
it's not so bad now. ive actually stopped crying long enough to type this.

if you haven't watched flight of the conchords i recommend it. it's worth a shot.