Gr3tta, thank you thank you thank you for your response. Of course the answer is no, I would want to protect a child in that position, and that realization just made me feel super sad. It took me a couple of days to collect my thoughts to reply.

Sannah, I do want to talk to T about this. Bleh. I had a therapy session this morning, but I didn't want to talk about it. This is a new therapist (just the 3rd meeting).

Actually we talked about privacy and about me not pushing myself so far to self-disclose that I feel bad and space out (I think he sees this as a self-care issue)!