I turn 30 soon and I have been really upset about it. I'm dating someone younger and have pretty much wasted the last 10 years of my life living in fear, disappointment, etc., because of anxiety, being damaged from an abusive alcoholic family, you name it. Internally, I feel like I'm about 60 and that I am withering away emotionally. If it wasn't for the last 30 years being so hard, I'd probably look 10 years younger at least. My face just looks sad and like it's being pulled down. I'm getting frown lines on my face even though I have been extremely diligent about staying out of the sun, using sunscreen and eating insanely well.

I'm much younger but I understand how this feels. Every day is another day (and then year) that my life has gone to waste, that I haven't been able to do what I set out to do, and I hate every and any reminder.