Hankster, thats how i was feeling, i was so thankful that he made the trip out that i didnt think much of it at first. But we live on a strand of small islands and the only way to get to his office is by taking two bridges, both bridges get you there in 20 minutes, if you make good time. We leave 30 minutes early for every appointment yet get there on the dot every appointment. There is no way, unless perhaps his other appointment cancelled on him, that he could have gone to that appointment and made it back to his office in 30 minutes. But perhaps they did cancel. Perhaps he retains a phone conversation with this client of 20 years. But these are only examples, each appointment he says things that make me confused or question what he has said, thing just dont add up in the appointments.

He knows i have a very difficult time making myself be heard, with anyone. I fear confrontation. I fear for them having to defend themselves because of me, im a push over and a coward through and through. Something we are working on, perhaps he is trying to push me to actually question him, stand up and say "wait a minute thats not right" but i cant.

Ive been trying to let it all slide, brush it off, but with every appointment, im left questioning what hes said because it just doesnt add up