Sannah, you are right. I have been through many therapists that caused more harm than good. I am trying really hard to finally work on this and have even accepted maybe digging into the blackouts and things, but i cant if i cant trust him. I have to trust someone who is going to pry into that part of me. Complete trust, something im having a difficult time with at the moment. I want to know that i can trust him so i can start working toward healing but if we dig into my blackouts, and he cant be trusted, hw can really screw me up