Thanks for that dexter. I have to tell you though that I will not speak to a therapist. There is no way that is going to happen.

"i found some difficulty with feeling too "well" and not being able to feel sadness... to not about to be moved by a good movie for example."

That was a huge problem. I couldn't feel sad about anything. I had my great aunt die and I couldn't even think badly about it, it was just something that happened like "Hum. That is very unexpected. Oh well". I feel sick thinking about it now that I couldn't care less about human loss of life. Anyway yea. I am actually considering not going in now. I have seasonal depression and it makes it even worse wehn we have snow 8 months of the year. As you know it's summer soon and so I am generally great during that time. So maybe september I will go. Maybe make it an event on the first day it snows. I just don't feel motivated to go like I did the other day, I am back to not caring if I get help or not.