And one more question, how do you recover the memories? Do you partially relive them when you recall them or does a part come out, tell the t and than you come back and the t tells you? T has been mentioning the last few weeks we need to go deeper. If i have to, id rather start with a night when i was 14, to know if it was one or both men. I dont know how i will handle knowing but im just not ready to know what was done when i was just a child. Whats the general way to recover those memories or does it come after being cocon? Id like to know what im getting in to before i go deeper