I don't know how to accept it...but I definitely can relate to your post. I wonder all the time if I'm really at fault for what happened, or I'm just looking for a reason to explain why I'm so ****ed up. It doesn't help that NO ONE will validate any of the things I've expressed or felt or remembered, and it seems like everyone blames me for things that happened to me.

Sorry I don't have any advice...but if it helps, you're not alone.