had to rescue this from the second page
sannah to answer your questions-unfortunately perfectionism is a trait a lot of us share inside and somehow were sure OCD to a degree plays into it but its not something that we have ever had a chance to address
as for keeping things to ourselves until they leak all over,we just always still feel like we are bothering others if we try and talk about how we feel/our needs. many times still even here we feel like we are being bothersome
and yes,to a very large degree we do feel like we deserved what we got-dont know why bit we do
as for cores husband loving us unconditionally-thats a complicated situation and would take quite some time to explain so we will say a tentative "yes" to that for now

we are very sorry for constantly moving this thread up to ask for more support but we need it