Since I am out for the summer, my appointment schedule with my therapist is a bit different. I missed my appointment today! I thought it was tomorrow. She sent me an email to see if I was okay since I didn't show up. I totally freaked out when I read it!

I called her right away to tell her that I thought it was tomorrow. We normally meet on Wednesdays. Then she reminded me that last week she told me we would have to meet on Tuesday this week. I went back to my notes and see that she did write that down for me.

She offered a phone conference, but I don't do well with that. She said we can keep in touch through email. Then she asked if there was something I needed to talk about today. I told her no. I was falling apart by now and didn't want to have a melt down on the phone!

When I hung up the phone, I totally lost it. I panicked big time. Why is it such a big deal that I missed an appointment? I had already thought about skipping this week since I was doing okay. Now that I am not having an appointment, I went crazy. What is wrong with me?

I even resorted to 'unhealthy' measures to calm down. It is ridiculous to be over reacting this way. I should be way past this kind of thing since I have been in therapy for more than 2 years. If I am going to react this way when something like this happens, I wonder if I need to quit therapy altogether. I can't take this kind of stuff!