Would love and did love working on a farm, I like live in the city sucks here, as good as a person U seem eskielover hard to imagine U are alone, be crazy doing a farm by your self,I have helped bail hay on a farm an vaccination cattle before wow was that a treat lmao good luck doing that farm work that isn't a joke that there is real work alot people will never know lol .I was not real happy loosing my family counseling my 13 year old this weekend went un controllable again had a terrible time with her, myself an wife worked it ok good as a team was tough but we got things under control so far, Knock on wood. I took a stand for myself over the last week an really made me feel alot better I took an approach that didn't cause a conflict, I was so happy and I didn't upset anyone, things smoothed out grate, doesn't happen very much in my house but was thankful, I seeing what I can do to get family counseling back, no idea on anything yet but I will find out soon I hope. Leep I building a lot better tolerance, not sure why think is cause of the past pain, I see so much clearer but then again I am not drinking myself stupid either thank god I haven't lost my family or anything yet just some hurt very hurt feelings an maybe some us here has a higher blood pressure lol.With positive advice like I have got here on PC an counseling I have obtained this year also book I have read from John Gray not saying is all grate but saying I have been alot happier as so my family has been getting more stable and tolerable, time and patience is all I have left I have came to a point I will do my best, if isn't enough I am sorry I do my best is all I got, as long there is some kind of progress I can handle it, keeping focused on things will be my goal to move forward.