I'm sorry special k, I lashed out and posted bad things. I lost it a little.

I'm still trying to write a meaningful reply to at least one person a day.

I thought you hated me. Sorry I think in black or white.

I really truly didn't know that my talking about loving Bob triggered abuse stuff for people. I'll try really hard to cut down on my bob posts.

I'll try to not idealize him. I'll try because i see now that I've hurt people as a result of my idealization.

I'm sorry I wasn't more supportive of you when you brought up the inconsistencies.

I'm sorry I posted about my experiences on the trip in detail. I thought people wanted to know the details. I wanted to include people by telling them all exactly what happened. I didn't really bond with anyone on the trip at all. There wasn't any special bonding going on, not that I know of. I just know that I felt a little left out during the last trip. I wanted people to tell me everything about the trip. That is why I went into so much detail.