I guess I do trust him, and I know I'm having a pride issue with not telling him. I know myself, I will wind up not going to him again because of embarrasment. I don't want him looking at me as the "crazy guy I treat".
But I have been barking at everyone at home. Little things make me feel frustrated and as if everyone is working against me. I know they are used to my mood swings where I'm very funny one moment, and the next something sets something off in my mind and instant bad mood. They know that. But right now I'm stuck in upset mood.

I have to admit something, in an effort not to behave moody or angry at home, I have been taking a lot of those nighttime pills that make you sleepy. The drowsy effect keeps me a little numb. I know I shouldn't do that, but it provides a little relief to my racing mind. I know I need a better solution. Not sure what though.