Yea, but I don't see myself as most people. Also those other people seem to have a sense of here and now kind of fun that I never understood.

I'm not less of a person for being a failure, but I feel I'm running out of life and that my complete life has been a total waste. Maybe I ask more of life than others, but also I think people choose a cause in life that is easier succeeding with. At the same time I don't ask for much, just functioning somewhat would please me to some degree, but I have absolutely no talent or patience for things like cleaning and organizing. I was probably meant to live in a small hut that you could burn when it got too messy....