I'm sorry to read that you feel that way about yourself, I can identify with what you say about cleaning - I'm quite a disorganised person by nature myself and have to force myself to do chores (I always feel better for having done them, but it always feels a chore).

You may not have a talent or patience for cleaning & organisation but your comment about living in a small hut to be burnt down when too messy shows you have a good sense of humour which is always an asset.