Thanks everyone - it honestly means a lot to me that so many of you replied and supported me, particularly as I lack any kind of support system offline!

Thank you so much for asking, Apteryx, that's so thoughtful! Yesterday was pretty interesting, to say the very least!

T1 wasn't as friendly in person as I'd anticipated from our e-mail communication and her photo.. she was pretty cold and clinical (VERY posh too), and didn't really give a straight answer to anything I asked. I don't doubt she's a good person, I was just pretty disappointed.

T2 was extremely personable (seems to be an outgoing person), seemed pretty concerned, so explained she didn't want to push me and fill in all the questions on her form at that initial meeting, and I felt reasonably comfortable. I found it pretty amusing when she explained why she had shells, buttons, toys, ornaments and sand in the room.. I've NEVER seen anything like that before! I guess ultimately she spoke to me like I was a human being (if you know what I mean) and she said something at the end that nobody's ever said to me before. I'm unsure how she plans to work with me, and I'm not sure I'm comfortable with some of her policies though - particularly with regard to cancellations - they seem pretty unreasonable (and unusual).

T3 I immediately disliked! She was COMPLETELY money-orientated, uninterested, pretty self-conceited, and said some horrible/malicious things when I politely tried to say I didn't think we'd work well together! Bleurgh..

Basically, I'm unsure what to make of it all! I don't know if I should see more people, or just settle with the second T I saw yesterday..? There's also now the possibility that I may be able to see ex-T again (privately), so that throws another spanner in the works. I don't think me and ex-T are a good fit at all (I'm more uncomfortable with her than I was with T1 yesterday), but a lot happened in my life during the short-ish time we saw each other - so we've been through a lot together - and I revealed something really HUGE to her, which has made me kinda attached to her, even though we hadn't had the chance to discuss it or work with it..

I'm really stuck with what to do! There's a lot of family pressure on me too to pick a T within a few days and instantly get better (as if by magic)..