I don't think I am going to get better...I mean even if I did everything right on my end who am i kidding? This society is still sick becoming well adjusted to it scares me more than going totally insane. Also my past still did cause damage I am pretty sure cannot be undone yeah it might be funny to pick on the wierd kid at school well it was never fun for me....being that weird kid and its only since I've reached adulthood that I've realised how much damage it actually did. I mean I feel like I never really had much of a chance to begin with I used to try to belive it would get better...and things only got worse and that pattern seems to continue for the most part.