I, like some others I see posting here, tried in vain for a while to find a psychiatrist or therapist who was taking new patients. I did so at time when things were their worst, but found no one. At one point long ago I attended one of those free clinics, but they were terrible. A young graduate reading from a list of things to ask, such as parents, society, etc. But no matter what the angle was, the solution was the same. here take these pills. Its not worth it. I would really like to know why I go through these severe swings in moods and anger and sadness. My regular doc can give me pills to take the edge off temporarily. Long ago, when I went to that hospital, I was told to stay on those pills forever. That just wasn't for me, but I have to wonder if there was a good reason for me to do that.
I know that in time my mood will swing back up, and I will stop feeling bad like this. Right now I have the typical physical ailments I get such as headache, neckache, dizziness and feeling like even a fly landing on a desk is too loud. Maybe, just typing this out helps, as I have to always keep these things to myself which makes me feel worse.