Well, I just signed up for a personal trainer for fitness. Good first session, I'm excited. Most of all, I am just happy I have a reason to leave the house now! Instead of just going out to wander. As for working in the family business, it is NOTHING but stress, I don't feel like it's healthy for me at all. I am only home for 2 months before school so I don't know about a job, or who would hire me, but I'll still try.

As for who I want to be? What I want to do? I have NO clue! I am studying political science in college. Why? I find it interesting. That's about it.
Do I want to be a politician? No.
Everyone always asks me "....why..?" Well that's my answer. I find it interesting, and I didn't somehow have a set life goal of going into cellular molecular biology from the beginning of life (seriously I met kids my freshman year of college who seemed to have their whole career path figured out!)
Because I don't have a set goal for my life or what to study I feel very misguided. I don't really know what to dedicate my studies to. Lots of things interest me like political science, biology, psychology, etc., but the whole MAJORING part and dedicating all my studies to that field is what intimidates. I don't like any of them to the point where I'm like I WILL NOW DEDICATE MY LIFE TO THAT.
And it seems because I can't find a field I am dedicated to, a LOT of doors are shut to me, like internships, organizations, programs, etc. I want to get involved! I want to work towards something! I just can't freaking PICK something though and this is really starting to bother me.