Day one down and already I'm going
with everything that's going on. It's so different from my secluded and controlled apartment life. For one, there's people... and homework... and events where you have to be social... It's a little overwhelming but it's helpful at the same time.
Thank you guys all so much for the hugs and support, even though I've been gone a while.
It 's so nice to know that I've been missed. It makes me feel a lot better about coming back, if that makes any sence at all.
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Originally Posted by shezbut
I think that it isn't uncommon to go through times when we kind of feel comfortable in a psych ward ~ I've had that emotion a couple of times in my last hospitalization. (I can't recall whether or not I had it in previous times.) That comfort didn't mean that I didn't belong in the hospital, I think that it feels a little safe right now. Talking with a couple of the other patients was very relieving to me. We could relate to one another, and it helped me feel a lot better in that moment. It didn't mean that I could communicate with anyone without a problem, I learned that very quickly! And the highly stressful experiences reassured me that I was in the long-term patient care for a good reason. I needed to build some skills to help me make it through my tough times, to decrease my need for future hospitalizations.
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This makes total sence Shez. Already I've been talking to people around here, and I've even become pretty good friends with a few of them. Plus, it always helps me to have conversations with people, even if I'm not talking about myself because it just helps to clear my head.
I get what you're saying about a safe environment. Maybe that's it. One of the other women here mentioned having a similar reaction. I think that's it, although I'm also starting to see my old anxiety creep up. I couldn't fall asleep last night, and then I got really anxiouse after one of the groups today.
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Regarding the relationship with your ex-bf/best friend, it's tough to say what your true feelings are. I think that you need to be in a more clear state of mind to make decisions about how you really feel towards him. Perhaps you miss his friendship, him being there to listen to you & not necessarily feel romantic attraction. I don't know. It can't hurt to keep that break-up clear at least until after you get out of the hospital.
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I was thinking along the same lines here. I figure my mind is too messed up with other stuff to get a clear picture of anything else right now, so I was just going to let that one sit. Reply if he texts but don't comit to anything kind of thing.
I know I miss him as a confidant though, and that's something that came into sharp folkus when I first got here. I miss having someone I could tell litterally everything to. But maybe I don't need that as much as I think I do. Hopefully I don't.
to all, and thanks again everyone for your support.
-Switch
ps, still no spell check, sorry.
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