Why is it so ridiculously hard to keep good, solid friends? I don't understand why every person I once considered a brother has either screwed me over, betrayed me, threw me under the bus, or just stopped contacting me altogether - sometimes for no reason whatsoever? It's horrible and the pain never really goes away, albeit I've found better ways to deal with it.

Okay, not every person I know has done this to me but more often than not it actually does happen and, like I said, the pain never really goes away. I'm assuming the frequencies at which my heart and soul heal aren't even close to that of my failing friendships. I've questioned this so many times - as to the reasons why - and I began analyzing myself to find out if there's something I'm doing wrong. What am I doing that's pushing people away? Do I come off as arrogant? Angry? Yeah, okay, I feel these emotions, the latter being pretty scary sometimes, but I don't drag the world down with them, let alone my friends or the people I care about for that matter. Well, at least I don't think I do!

I know people come and go, it's a hard lesson I've learned over the years, and I've come to terms with it. However, when each and every one of my friendships ends in failure, I can't help but to be cynical and a skeptic about starting any kind of relationship. I'm sure some of you guys can relate or maybe you have something that could help? Anything would be cool...