I haven't been diagnosed with aspergers, but from my own personal research I'm pretty sure I have many traits associated with it if not full blown aspergers. I've also noticed these traits in parents, siblings, as well as other blood relatives.

The social issues I've experienced as a result of my non-neurotypical interactions have resulted in self-esteem, depression, and anxiety issues. So much so that I've developed a drug problem, starting with drinking and marijuana, and resulting in some meth and heroin use, which was relatively minor and now only do pills, which honestly, are just as bad as hard drugs. (except meth maybe, it pretty much blows any other drug out of the water.)

It's the only way I have to cope, because of my poor interpersonal and communication skills. I could not begin to convey to my good friends, who I am grateful to still love me despite my oddities and failure to properly develop a relationship with them, what I'm going through emotionally.

Now I just don't know what to do. I want to seek professional help, but I've done so twice before, with poor results. I feel better equipped, in terms of awareness of myself and personality, emotionally, and maturity, to actually pursue successful "treatment". But I still hesitate --

Can you fix aspergers, possibly severe, after adulthood? Everywhere I read says early intervention is key. Is it too late for me? Obviously i would benefit in the substance abuse area. But JUST regarding the aspergers-like traits of emotional, communication, etc. etc. issues.

My parents didn't notice these things in me, and so I never had any kind of help. They saw me as perfect and didn't realize that I would have benefited from intervention -- really, I think I would be a different person right now.

Wondering if I should start looking at psychologists/therapists who specialist in ASD or not.