I still cannot seem to shake this awful feeling. I cannot believe it is going to be another week before I meet with her again. She wants me to explore my feelings about this and why I have such a strong reaction to therapy. I really can't answer that because I don't know why I do.

I don't like this feeling, though. It makes me almost sick. I want to go to bed and just sleep. Not wake up for 3 days! Why would something as innocent as missing an appointment send me into such a deep despair and depression? I am way too strong of a person for that. Or so I thought I was?