Hello Worried Girl!! Welcome To PC,
There are alot of things I would like to ask you, such as have you ever been abandoned before by someone you cared for as in a parent or something.... sometimes that leads to fear of abandonment. This is something you may need to seek therapy for, I hate to say that to anyone but you may get some fantastic opinions here and some great help ideas.
I am going to have to think about this and then come back again. I understand I think what you are going through and would love to be able to help, but I have to get my thoughts in order first or well who knows what dribble I will say....... Take care and I hope that someone will be able to give you some real answers to your concerns... sending a gentle hug your way. Linda