One thing at a time, carly. Do what you can do, not what seems impossible. When I started therapy in college for an eating disorder, I walked out of the first session. I went back, but walking into that room was something I COULD do. I couldn't follow what the therapist was telling me to do, but I could show up, and I did.

Keep yourself safe and try to know that what they are asking you to do is designed to save your health. It was years before my body re-acquired the ability to regulate my blood sugar.